Failure

Open question, open thought…

How many of us starve just because we are upset about something ?
Or mad at someone?

I do it this time to prove I can do something, that I am in control and not someone else.

I am supposed to be studying today.. but somehow cannot seem to find the motivation to do so.. ive read a chapter, but that was it.. tomorrow and this weekend it will be hard work I presume :s

I am kinda fucking up all my personal and social relationships in a way that I think its beyond repair. Ive got no idea what and how to go about anymore. So as from today I will withdraw myself completely, smile and wave, talk when talked to.. these kinds of stuff.

I sometimes just wants to die rather than face this messed up life that I have.. maybe I am messing it up myself, Im sure no one else is to blame.

I want to become as light as a feather.. floating away.