Dissapearing

Doing OK with the weightloss, mayB too slow, but i cant complain ...

-1,8kg already since 2 Jan 2011 ...

My goal is to dissapear! Into thin air! :)

No one really understands me and no one really care to do some effort with it.. I am on my own with this.. but its fine.

Still have a long way to go though :s
But for beauty you need to endure pain! :)

I'm falling back into my old habbits..

-Shutting myself down from everyone - they dont fucking care anyway!
-Weighing myself ever half hour - no trust

I have exams coming up in a week, i dont even feel like im caring anymore...

I just want to dissapear!

Losing a bit, gaining a lot

Lost in a total, sinds 2 January, 1 kilo!!!
Yay!!!

Sitting here in my bed, took a ritalin, waiting for it to 'kick in' so that i can start the preperations for my exams in less than 2 weeks...
I have no motivation, but keep telling myself this, that if i dont study i will fail and have to re-do it again, and that is a terrible thought!

I'm halfway back into ana mode.. i needed it.

Food for today: try and eat nothing!

New Start 1/1/2011

Dear New Blog..

After deleting some old stupid posts, i concider this as a new beginning! :)

Also starting



Start Weight today: 91kg
Goal by 21/7/11: 60kg

FAT FAT FAT

Hitted the high 90's again... :'(

I wanted to join my friends to do the indoor ski thing, but didnt manage to close my ski pants :( that was humiliating!

6 March is my actual 'ski date' in Austria, i better lose about 10kg's in order to be able to fit into my pants again, otherwise i need to buy a new one, but that costs too much as i already have an expensive one! :/

Still thinking of starting with the Ritalin, just to get more energy to study...
I sadly have the kids with me (im a babysitter) this week, so i have to start intense next week...

For the morning i had a big bowl Special K with low fat milk..
Coffee,
a few tasts of spread that we put on bread..
a teaspoon Nutella - :(

Hopefully the rest of the day i can stick to fruit...

Christmas and new beginnings

Deleted all the other posts, i need a clear start...





Due to a lovely cold white Christmas, i gained 2 kilo's in 2 days :s

Not really smart, i know..

But hey, starving in the Christmas period is just really unreasonable for me.



I calculated that i have 29 weeks left to lose 30kg's 'till i'm off to see my family again in South Africa...

1kg per week should be OK, if i manage to drop it off! :s



I really need to pass my exams in January, otherwise I might just get into trouble.



Quest for today:

-Eat as little as possible,

-Drink Water, coffee, greeen tea

-Try and burn kcals