New start and bad weekend

Weight today: 86,3

6 weeks to lose +7kgs!

I really need to! I'm going skiing and my pants don't fit :s

Inside i feel like i need a new start, a new life.. new face, less fat.. :/ shitty feeling this is!

Deleting all of the stopid short posts on here, and giving this blog a remake during the evening.

Had a tough and bad weekend so far, kinda binged and purged whole weekend, chances are good that i will gain like 2kg, which will be very very sad actually, but hey, life goes on from here.

Got my first comment that i am doing well with my 'dieting', strange, no one knows im on a diet?
hehe! gives me motivation to go further...

Hopefully this week will be good to me in all the ways it possible can! Hehe!

Goal for Friday is: 85kg

- 5kg

Okey, so since 1 Jan i am already -5kg!

Awesome!

Exams are hectic, havent been blogging for a while, not even on my personal blog :/ badgirlbadgirl

New goal for end January will be: 85 max ... less will be 'more' better =p

Can't wait to see my family back in South Africa.. Gonna be so super awesome!!!

Okey, going for some 'cocktails' now.. long live cola zero!

<3

Panicked

Got on the scale this morning... lost nothing :s but didnt gain anything! :)

Just now, i stepped on the scale again, only to find out i "gained" 1 kilo in 2 hours! Jeez i panicked!!

Reason:
Water, cola light, green tea and coffee! = all innocent! hehe!

Hope to be losing some more, think i did well this week! :D

Weird

Im in the rigid mode again...

Starve, eat, vomit..

Hunger, cut and starve ... <3

Im in control!

Taking distance from everyone, isolating..

I feel good...
For now...

Dissapearing

Doing OK with the weightloss, mayB too slow, but i cant complain ...

-1,8kg already since 2 Jan 2011 ...

My goal is to dissapear! Into thin air! :)

No one really understands me and no one really care to do some effort with it.. I am on my own with this.. but its fine.

Still have a long way to go though :s
But for beauty you need to endure pain! :)

I'm falling back into my old habbits..

-Shutting myself down from everyone - they dont fucking care anyway!
-Weighing myself ever half hour - no trust

I have exams coming up in a week, i dont even feel like im caring anymore...

I just want to dissapear!

Losing a bit, gaining a lot

Lost in a total, sinds 2 January, 1 kilo!!!
Yay!!!

Sitting here in my bed, took a ritalin, waiting for it to 'kick in' so that i can start the preperations for my exams in less than 2 weeks...
I have no motivation, but keep telling myself this, that if i dont study i will fail and have to re-do it again, and that is a terrible thought!

I'm halfway back into ana mode.. i needed it.

Food for today: try and eat nothing!

New Start 1/1/2011

Dear New Blog..

After deleting some old stupid posts, i concider this as a new beginning! :)

Also starting



Start Weight today: 91kg
Goal by 21/7/11: 60kg